The Story Behind My Tattoo: Guest Post by Sarah Krueger

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A Guest Post: The Story Behind My Tattoo by Sarah Krueger.

"For the many times I've wanted to end my life and chose to continue it instead..."

"I've dealt with depression for much of my life. I was first diagnosed when I was 13, but dealt with it long before my official diagnoses; just like a lot of us do until we can find proper treatment and a doctor to diagnose us right.

After the birth of my daughter was when I had gotten the diagnoses of bipolar depression. Let me just say, it is not something fun to try and live with and the ones who have been able to watch my journey know that. I was not only diagnosed with bipolar depression but I had also received 12 electro shock treatments (ECT), due to postpartum depression; and if I can help prevent someone from having to walk the same journey I have it is beyond worth it!

We all have something that serves as a reminder and helps pull us through. 2 Corinthians 4:6-9 is my reminder that whatever life may throw at me light will always shine out of the darkness and I will not be beaten!! It helps take me back to the beginning from when I tried taking my own life and the start of the second chance at life I had been given!

For God, who said, “Let light shine out of darkness,” made his light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of God’s glory displayed in the face of Christ.
But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed." 2 Corinthians 4:6-9

At the age of 17, I tried ending my own life. I had taken 46 pills in hopes of never waking up in the morning, but instead I got a hospital stay in the ICU and a second chance at life. You see, I didn't fail at trying to end my own life like too many tell themselves, "I can't even kill myself right .." and fill in the blank for whatever else lie we my tell ourselves. I didn't fail. I succeeded at giving myself a second chance a life. Better yet, I succeeded at allowing God to give me a second chance at life. God gets all the glory in this story!!

I remember that night all too well. I remember the pain of wanting to down the pills, to actually downing the pills, and closing my eyes for the last time but, most of all, I remember the victory won that day!!

The semi colon is a reminder of that. Where the enemy once tried putting a period, Christ gave me life!

God made a STRONG warrior out of me and you may call me passionate, but look at my role model!! Why wouldn't I want to share in my victory!!

I may still deal with depression from time to time, but while I may be struck down I am not destroyed!!"

Thank you for sharing your story Sarah Krueger !!
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